So Damn Hard
I needed to stop
So I blocked myself
Boxed me away
From everything
And everyone
But what I needed most
Was to stop hurting you
Pain makes my tongue
Fast and sharp
Cutting to the quick
And I have to learn
To cool off
Before lashing out in anger
And I was angry
Because I couldn’t make myself heard
And I was frustrated
Because you wouldn’t listen
You misunderstood
Everything I tried to say
Focusing on the words
Instead of the message
That I didn’t need the world
All I wanted was you
…Only you
But you wouldn’t give an inch
Without first taking a mile
You left me here alone
When what I needed
Was to be seen
Through these walls
I knew it wouldn’t be easy
But you didn’t need to make it
So damn hard
Words: ©2021LCR
Images: CCO
Lesson here for all of us, Lisa.
ReplyDeleteLori even. Thanks so much. I need to put myself on ice sometimes, I run a little hotter than I should.
DeleteLori, you're too hilarious! 😂
DeleteNow you made me laugh! 😁
DeleteLisa / Lori??
DeleteI do know who is who——LOL
Lol! I know you do! 😁 Funnily my best friend's name is Lisa and I used to get called by her name all the time when we were kids and you brought that memory back. (That was the Lori even, in my response because that's how I used to respond when people would call my by her name! And she'd say Lisa even when they called her by mine. Two of a kind!)
DeleteAfter I finished reading the first four stanzas, I was ready to say that the poem should've ended there, that it was complete. Then I read the whole thing and totally changed my mind. At the end of the first fourth stanza the speaker takes a breath, and then lets out all the hurt and wisdom earned from the experience. And the ending is perfect, in words and in tone.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much. I wrote it as one piece and found the images after. Normally I only use a single image but this felt like a triptych and once the images were in place I knew that it was a story in three parts. I really appreciate your feedback.
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