Utterly Undone
I hate that I miss you
I hate how hard it is
To be here without you
I hate how I constantly
Think about you
Then wonder if you ever
Think of me
I hate that I have
This overwhelming need
To feel you inside me
Even though it feels like
You don’t need me at all
I hate that you
Confuse the hell out of me
Because I no longer know
Who I’m supposed to be
I hate how insidious
This desire for you has become
How it grows stronger
In spite of your absence
So that I can no longer bear
Being apart
I hate my stupid heart
For being irrational
But most of all
I hate that I am completely
Unsure of where I stand
Bewildered at how
I have become
So utterly undone
At your hand
I hate how hard it is
To be here without you
I hate how I constantly
Think about you
Then wonder if you ever
Think of me
I hate that I have
This overwhelming need
To feel you inside me
Even though it feels like
You don’t need me at all
I hate that you
Confuse the hell out of me
Because I no longer know
Who I’m supposed to be
I hate how insidious
This desire for you has become
How it grows stronger
In spite of your absence
So that I can no longer bear
Being apart
I hate my stupid heart
For being irrational
But most of all
I hate that I am completely
Unsure of where I stand
Bewildered at how
I have become
So utterly undone
At your hand
Words: ©2022LCR
Image: CCO
I feel the angst in every line of your beautifully crafted poem!!!
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